Breakdowns

not in songs.


chapter one - limitations


sometimes i don't know 'em.


class + multiple jobs + plus the normal stress = exhaustion (physically and emotionally)

when will I learn?


first day off in nearly a month is thursday - just get me to thursday- then I can see Wall E.

Classics

The rundown...

One week left of class - which means - edit my film - but first learn how to use my editing program on my computer - write a few papers - read a whole lot- and work my jobs every day and night - This is the big week of busy here, but come July 2nd - I will be on a real summer vacation - except for work- but no school until late August.

I had more visitors this weekend (Amy, Alan and the cat) - and even though I was working most of the time I was able to sing 9 songs at karaoke (Piano Man by Billy Joel and Die, Die, My Darling -Metallica version - just so you understand the scope of my set) and my solo trip to see Death Cab for Cutie became a group outing- as we miraculously came across three available tickets! Great show- it find it rare to see bands I've loved for a long time for a first time- most of my favorites I've seen over and over- but this was fresh and exhilirating - ah!

Also, you may be happy to hear, that the cat killed a cockroach. I'll find out this week if I will be able to move out earlier then my lease says- it'd be nice to have roommates, but not these monsters!

This weekend marked the 10th anniversary of me graduating high school... I had big plans to send out a mass text marking the occasion to those I graduated with, but I was way busy... A grand idea in my head, and there it will stay. Seriously, I had come up with so many blog entries disecting my memories and feelings of being 10 years removed, but (1) Didn't have the time to give it the effort it needed and (2) I'm trying to avoid falling into that chamber of nostalgia... Though, lately, as I sit in class, during screenings, I think about how me of 10 years ago would feel, being at a film grad school like this... but then I wish it was 10 years ago... not for any particular reason, I just like the open range of possibility that 18 sang. Which is strange, since I'm pretty much at a similar point now, but it just feels like there's less margin for error...

We Work Hard, But We Play Hard Too

Astonishing!


I went from a summer class and a part time job to a few part time jobs and a summer class...

I'm not even going to mention where my jobs are, because they are too reminiscant of yesterday, rather then any forward momentum...

And that worries me, right? I mean - what if I messed up my whole "potential" career by not slaving in the business this summer? But at least I'm making some small change, and at least I will keep myself busy-

Let's face it - the dream of having time to write sounds good in theory- but writing comes in waves - and idle time inbetween those waves can be disastorous...

So I will be keeping myself busy for the next 6 to 7 weeks.

I plan to continue writing- so I can feel some sort of forward momentum.


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I had a few more visitors last weekend - all the way from the great state of New Jersey~ They seemed to have fun, as I certainly did having them visit and take me to San Diego, to watch the Mets lose. Luckily, San Diego was filled with disgruntled Mets fans.


I saw Hulk this week- kind of liked it - I'm beginning to notice a trend in films I like - artsy or character driven pieces and comic book movies. That's about it!


Speaking of which- I have a personal rule with my Netflix (2 at a time plan, if I go more than a month without watching a film, I send it back. That's too much shelf time! The Savages was doomed to be sent back, but I decided to stay up and watch it= good thing, I really enjoyed it...


Last note,


You can't go back - though I feel at times that the best scenario. But it's a trick of the mind. I know this, this is my curse. It always looks best to go back. But it's gone, dude.

All week I've been missing my old path- with sincere thoughts of going back to it after I've done this thing for a little while. I know it's a trick of the mind - right?


Actually, I think after the L.A. experiment ends - I'll go north east and start a band with Phil in New Hampshire.


Who knows?

2008 REDWINGS

Look, this finals was pretty exciting.... game 5 was top notch... who knew the pens could tie it up with 30 or secs remaining? and then win in it 3rd ot! Even game 6... that ending was intense... i screamed at the end... thinking the pens tied it up... my friend texted me from across the complex to ask if that was me who was screaming. it was.


congrats to the wings and mr. osgood sogood.


today i picked up the new h20 album... why? nostalgia? i bought there last new album for the same reasons, but that was in 2001... i think they are trapped in the same time period that i am, so it works


i finished a rough draft of a long project, so i'm excited about that.

today, i spent nearly 4 hours at the dmv.... i now officially have california plates.... and my liscense is on its way in the mail... crazy.